Truth

I didn't think I'd feel again. Not so soon, not in high school.
I always said I'd finally meet new guys at my new job, new people, but I was kidding! I didn't think I'd actually have feelings. I tried not having feeling's for guys, in the end there's always pain. I did so good for two years, after Davi. I build up these walls but then right when I meet that person, it's like everything I worked so hard for is gone. Now I sound like this depressed heart broken girl lol. But oh well no one reads this shit lol. Anyways this guy, I just, it just happened. This is going to sound sappy, but he has the most beautiful smile ever lol...I'm sorry it took me week to even look at his name tag because I couldn't stop staring at his eyes and smile. He's so happy, thats what I love, I love guy who smile. He's muscular and masculine not freaking noddle. I wonder what sports he plays.
He got yelled at his boss the other day, we're so similar, we both always get in trouble, it feels so wierd typing it but its true, we both stand up for ourselves and speak out. He's mature... he's kind of old, he's 20 and goes to Fitchburg state college. He's better then all the guys my age, he's mature, that's what matters to me. Its so cute how he greets me, he always notices me and when he does he stares, then smiles and then nods. It's so cute how he nods, cuz it he means it cuz he recognized I'm there. When I left kept staring omg, I'm really starting to like him, it's so bad. Omg it's like I've never learned since Davi, or from Jeff. Right now I can't stop smiling, I have butterflies, I feel so high lol.
God, please let this be real, just once. Omg so cuteeee when he was across the room and he noticed me... just the way he stared it was so obvious, I need to see him again. He got in trouble with out boss and he kept glancing at me and smiling and our boss got even more mad. We have to have breaks together, i just omg, this is so bad,
help...
The funny part is, that this is the one guy my mom doesn't like from me. He has a ear ring which makes him, 'modern.' I love his ear ring, I always like ear rings in guys honestly, just one though anything else is gross. My mom doesn't understand, I'm not like some old fashioned 100% girl that everyone expets me to be. I'm American, I'm not Peruvian, I'm not French, American. I'm not saying that either side is wrong or right, simply that I'm my own individual, myself, my opinion.
In all seriousness, when I went to Peru a lot of the people seemed strangely similar. They all had the same superstitions and myths... passed down from generations, but there absolutely no proof for what they say because there is no proof. It's just you'd think like, I dont know I don't know enough and I'm not judging but you'd think that maybe one day they'd develop their own opinion or actually look up and research the truth. Idk, thats just me. My whole life, I listened to what my parents say but all because they said it, it doesn't make it right. Thats just me.
But anyways what I like about him is that he's open minded. <3 :)

I can't wait to see him