Confessions of My Life

I can't wait till I get out of this school. When I go to college I'm gonna be an entirely different person. My entire life I always fell in with the wrong people. In elementary school my best friend was Goth, the other was anorexic. (I'm not judging just saying how my friends were). In high school, 2 of them are complete drugatics, one is exstremely naive, a few are huge drinkers. A few of them are sluts. All these people are fake, but who am I to talk? I'm just as fake as they are. A girl, whom I never speak to, said I think that I'm better then everyone else. Which isn't true! But to be honest, now that I look back, I do act like I do. Even the way I sit and talk. Honestly, I wouldn't even be surprised if someone tries something on me. In school I'm one of those people you either hate or love. I have a lot of friends but at the same time a lot of people hate me. A few years back I used to be really mean. I'd insult people, I wasn't a bully but I'd be the person to make comments that were mean but so true out loud. I stopped though but I've been looked as that person. Every teacher hates me except for one. When I walk into a room every teacher looks at me like I'm gonna pull out a freckon gun. I'm just a girl! I haven't done nutin in years. Even when I ;isten to my damn ipod, my music sometimes on accident I put it too high and its like hard rap and once a teacher heard and looked at me as if rap is a sign that I'm in some type of gang.
Today some guy come up to me saying hi to me. Then how are you and then he said that he likes me. HES EXACTLY, THE TYPE of people I dont want to hang out with!!! His group is even worse then mine, he' in some kind of brazilian gang or whatever. When I got my nose pierced people were like that so basass. They don't mean it as a whore but like the image teachers already have of me. And I'm not exadgerating, EVERY teacher stares at me. If anyone even cares to rea this bs, when you have kids, listen to what your kids say and dont compare to your childhood. Because I guarentee you peer pressure will always get harder. My mom can never understand, I tell her how bad it is, what the kids do... and she just can't seem to understand how in the world that goes on in school But it does, all of it. Honestly high school is harder then the real world I'd have to say, at least people aren't in your face telling you what to do when there are 50 other people just like them around you. BS peer pressure is easy. People who say it is were obviously in some secluded area in the middle of nowhere in a tiny school, aka my mom. My dad understands. Hah the only thing he does understand from, coming from the guy who's done pot lol.
Honestly I'm surprised I've come this far without anything happening to me only a year and a half to go. My title has probalby got me out of most of it though, I just got lucky. Maybe my fake facade wasn't so bad. My old friend who is said by the school is a complete loser now, they bully her too, at least she's real. I'm not. I took the easy way just be like rest of them and act like your better then everyone else so no one can touch you.
And it's true no one can touch me phyically, mentally or verbally. Not ever.
Inside I'm just me.
I wont end up like Brian, he was jumped two days ago, beat up by 'MHS.' I wonder if he's blind, the inside of his eye was bleading.

Note to self: haha. Stay away from "R.M." We were friend when we first met, but I found out he's part of the gang cliques. Omg Aldora, there is complete difference with high school cliques and gangs. I'm not getting involved in this shit. Cliques hmm because they are all related they all 'click.'

I'll keep you updated Imma write in this thing from now on. When I get to college, no way I'm staying here with these people. Need to get out of central county.