Lolololol

Ok all I post on here are about boys. This guy is going to be called T for hius initial. I met him a month ago (I dont like him, I like the other one). This guy inults me every single day LOL. About how dumb I am well it's true in that class, in Spanish I really do suck, so does Savitha. We had a open book quiz, it was based on the reading but I couldn't understand the reading because I hadn't learned those words because I had a different teacher last year. T doesn't know that. So when we get back our results, he said a dead person could do better then you LOL. Not once has he said something nice to me LOL, when I took out my lotion I offered him some and he said, "why would I want to smell like you?" omg Lol. I moved my seat, to sit behind him because of all the insults but I was laughing the whole time. So he leans back on the desk behind him which is me, and I had tried to get away from him in the first place lol.
But sometimes he gives me life lessons, he tells me how important junior year is, that "What you put in, in life, is what your going to get out," etc etc etc. He tells me that I really need to focus this year, that my life depends on it. I could tell he was going to insult me again and I said, "WHAT, are you now going to say I look like shit today because I know I do!" lol. And he said, "no, I don't judge people's looks." I can't help but admire that, how often do you hear a guy say that? When the teacher put some gay video, and there wasn't going to be a test on it or anything, so I just took out my phone to start texting. And he said, "What are you doing on your phone thats so important!?" and I said, "texting." He smiled and slapped his hand againt his face. LOL. So I put it away because I knew he wanted me too so I could pay attention to the movie and do good, I dont know why he cares lol. When he gives me these life lessons, I stare out into space because I know he' right so I just think about life. And I know he's watching me. It's just no one's like paid attention to me like that, to know what I'm thinking and to actually care enough to stare.

About the other guy, Idk why I'm attracted to him. Maybe because I really want to help someone, I failed to help my dad, I tried so hard for so many years. And now I want to try again. But how can I help someone when I can't even help myself!?