Its so wierd really, I can't stop liking him. But I hate him at the same time, I hate him but like him so much lol. I feel so high haha. The butterflies are killing me!!!
But I hate this, I swore it wouldn't be someone from school. I didn't even know him until this school year and everything changed. I promised myself I wouldn't date anyone in high school. This is bad I see him everyday so it's different, I was fine before just having a bunch of guy friends in and out of school, I was happy, no commitment, nothing. I dont want a relationship I know its bad but its true. I knew if I met the right person then I would want a relationship but this is way too soon. I have to fix my personal problems first, my mom made me realize that I still have a lot of anger towards my dad, I have problems with having an actual relationship because of my dad so dating anyone would be unsucessful. I need to focus on school, relationships are time consuming and stressful. Do I really think it'll be like that with him? No I don't I'm just making excuses not to date him because im petrified.
He actually cares about me, WANTS to know me and that what scares me most. It's wierd because he seems fascinated by my answers like he can't figure it out so he asks more questions idk y. But thats what I'm afraid of him knowing me more then he already does.
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