Me

I guess this is just whats been going on lately. I've changed so much lately. I'm never legit home. Every weekend I've been going to parties and during the week I'm just everywhere. I don't know if thats a good thing. My grades are going up and I'm getting decent sleep actually. Omg 2011 has been crazy everyone can drive now its just I feel so old now. But I love it, like I always feel so high now. Everything is just so good now. I'm so excited for this summer. I met a great guy too, his name is Willson he was just so chill like he came up to me asking me all this shit like what school I go to, etc, how old blah blah and then he said, "Your a pretty girl I'm not gonna lie I check you out sometimes. I don't mean to come off as a creeper but do you have a bf?" I was like no. and he said, "you know maybe you and I can try ya know?" Its just I loveeeee straight forward guys like that. I hate these shy guys that take months to say something its a waste of time if playing chase. Its immature he just he said so smoothly he doesn't seem like a player it was soo natural about it all. I'm sooo much happier this way. Like before I was so different. I guess basically I just have a bunch of attractions not really any feelings for any of them. Before I was always the one having feelings but not anymore. I can't handle feelings, I'm 17, I'm free I can do whatever I want...

I'm sorry John, for hurting you. The feelings I get with you are bad, in all honesty you deserve so much better then me... if only I can say this to you...