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Oh one thing I just want to add. I really love my friends, I really do. But I know how immature some of them are, I don't trust anyone but myself. I've lost so many people over the years, I don't let anyone get close to me. With the school I used to go to, I've learned so much. If education was based on street smart I'd have graduated college by now. Or in the area I used to live in I had to deal with that everyday. Hearing people scream at night or gun shots. I remember in the middle of the night when I was 14 my mom and I hid in the hallway where there were no windows waiting for the screaming and shooting to stop. Or my dad whos lied my entire life, I can see through anyone's lie, including Ronie. I hate lying so much and this nothing to be proud of, but I'm a good liar. But I rarely ever lie though. Now I'm getting off topic, I just really want to go to college, at my new job most of the guys are older then me and they are all SOO different. I didn't think guys like that existed. I just need to get out of here. Kristal has been a really close of friend of mine now, she's grown up so much. I love herrrr :)