LOL

Ok, I know I deleted all of my posts mainly because I reread them and it felt stupid. But I really need to say some stuff. So I'm wicked confuzed. So there's this guy...LOL... but it's impossible for it to work out because it'd NEVER be socially accepted and it's inapropriate. I won't say what Im talking about because it's just too personal. All the time in the hallways he makes eye contact with me and then smiles everyday.
But I hate it because it's similar to the feeling I had with Davi. And Davi is coming back next year. I dont know for sure but even Felipe said he was! My friend is asking Ronie since he won't lie to her since Ronnie knows I had the biggest thing for Davi last year.
I really need this summer lol.
I'm honestly having some problems with my friends. One of them came and told me that we aren't as close as we used to be. Which I don't really understand. Nothing's changed other then the last couple days because she was quiet. But I guess I understand her... she's so stressed about school. We both haven't been doing as good as we were supposed to be. We both leaned over towards the social life. Not only that I feel really bad... on every single test, quiz I have done better then her... For the math final she studied for 5 hours... I barely studied and I got over 20 points higher then her...
There's so much drama to type in one post. I'm worried if she'll go out with my friend. No offence to him but she deserves so much better then him. She's so innocent and he's a drinking sex atic. I try telling her that he is going to have expectations from her that she won't be able to give him. He is known for cheating. During the year he 'liked' her... he's had sex and flirted with 20 girls.
Next year is SAT's, I really need to take school seriously. So much has happened this year.
I made a few new friends though. Their names are Grace and Jerry.
Jerry is the nicest person I have ever met. lol.
What I realized lately about myself is that I'm not mature enough to have a relationship lol. I'm still too much into physical looks... but I know it's a lie. I honestly in my heart don't care about how someone looks. But I'm really not looking for any relationship at all. I just like having fun.
My ''''''''friend''''''''' is spreading rumors about me. She said I like him. Because she can tell by the way I "LOOK" at him. Complete BS.
This is what I love about guys, they dont start all the drama crap the way girls do. Their fun to joke around and be with. Girls take things too seriously sometimes.
Well I'm wicked tired...
Night :]