Snippet

Part 58

She stood in the middle of wilderness, waiting for it to come. For years she'd been running. It haunted her everyday. She wasn't afraid of dying, she was afraid what would come of this world if she died. The branches above her were rattling in the wind. She blocked out the sound of the distant waterfall, the occasional tweeting birds and the pounding of her heart. Deep inide her she wanted to cry, since that very first day. But she knew if she let that single tear fall, she wouldn't be able to stop. But it made her stronger. No one could destory her, she lost everything, she was immune to any emmotional interference. She straightened her back, chin up. Branches snapped behind her, but she recognized it, the sound of small animals. But then it stopped with one last thump. Then it was too quiet. It was coming, she knew. She closed her eyes before the pressure slammed against her back, throwing her into the air, pounding her onto a tree trunk. She thought she'd be unconscious, but she was fully aware of the pain that hit her like a meteor blasting into millions of fragments. She screamed a cry of death, but death didn't take her. She looked up towards the sky, before her her head fell forward staring into the innocent yet defying forest. This was it, she thought.

Well

Its so wrong.
But I can't help how I feel.
And the worst part is nobody knows.

Guys

Lol ok. So the last few days have been great. I feel so free, I know that sounds kinda weird but its true. I don't have feelings for any guy which makes me feel in control, it feels so good. Today, I found out that Steve and Gabby are dating!?!?! WTF! LOL. So gay, he broke up with his other girlfriend 2 days ago! Steve is just so full of it haha, YESTERDAY, he was staring at me and smiling. He always does that. He tried kissing me in the hallway once.
Other topic. Two friends want to kill each other. She stole my bf blah blah blah, I can't go out with him till things calm down. Shut up. This has all started from day one, just stop. Kevin doesn't like her as much as last year either, he made fun of her yesterday to me.
Oh and Adam is going to the same college as me I found out he said, "now when I go to college I dont have to do the horse, umbilical cord, or the German" LOL! Hes so funny, I love sitting next to him and Jamie in Physics. So my friend likes Jamie, but he also likes my other friend but I think their going out on Sunday. I really hope they go out though. And Ronie need to shut the hell up and stop flirting with me. Idk how to tell Savitha, he brushed my arm before, he tickles me, says how awesome I am, what a good friend I am, how I look good. Stop. Please.
Oh and then there is that other problem I have. That is absolutely impossible, that would never be socially accepted, that'd be so wrong, messed up and I'd literally ruin her life. Of all the people right? Oh and Ronie's brother was born today, he is absolutely adorable! Oh and I think John still like me... :/ he asked me out during the summer... but it never like worked out?

I know its weird writing this on here but no ones reads this crap lol. I guess its just something that I can read about in the future and see how things work out.

Well I gtg clean my guinea pig's cage.

Omg.

Just when I trust you, everything just falls. How could I be so stupid? Why don't I ever learn? When I need you most your not even here. Your never here when I need you. You don't even have the slightest clue. No one understands. No one knows. The worst people, every time. Now its impossible. The one thing I wanted, the one thing I'd be happy to die with, is taken away from me everytime. But somehow, it comes back. But then its gone.
Just like that.
I can almost hate you for it.
But I can't.
That deal was stupid. I needed the truth.
Not illusion.
You were a good friend though, you were only doing what I told you to do.
But of course, thats what I'm good at, telling people what to do,
sometimes, I'm no different from him.