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Ok so I got a problem.
I'm lying to myself.
Thanks bye. lol.

WELL

OK
I'm in Peru for 3 weeks. 2 Car accidents from two friends......friend having dad alcoholic problems, my friends mom is dying, my friend just moved into an even worse neighborhood in the ghetto..... just wow.

VENTING : RONIE

Ok well, I'm sick again and its reallllllllllllyyy starting to get annoying. It one sickness after the other. But more importantly my period is coming. It makes me, depressed, antisocial, tired and emotional. Not only that I'm annoyed at some people. One is extremely important to me. But you know? I'm not going to think about it! =D Ronie is pissing me off. People are messaging me on facebook, PEOPLE I BARELY EVEN SPEAK TO, tell me, "Ronie likes you." OMG, What oh what do I do? Why is he going out with my closest friend ever, like REALLY? EVEN right before they dated, he ALWAYS flirted with me. More then anyone. He even touches me when I don't want him to... like my arms... I mean he's my friend but nothing else. How do I tell Savitha this? When Him and Savitha broke up for one hour or whatever, he immediately thought that I tried to split them up yet he wasn't even mad at me. It's funny, a year ago we hated each other to death. Now he's like a close friend of mine. What do I do?

Ugh

Don't get me wrong I love Peru. But my grand parents are really starting to get on my nerves. Everywhere I go they are holding onto me. I'm not 5 years old, I don't need someone to hold on my hand. I can walk 10 feet away without an escort. I'm capable of walking. My mom better do something because its driving me CRAZY!
I'm sick of being questioned by my grandma, she asked the same question 15 times in a row... and I say yes 15 times in a row. I love them, I mean their my grand parents... If I don't get me freedom I'll die...
Even my mom said her mother was annoying lol. My grandma is just so scared of life, my grandma and I are complete opposites... I'm really chill but shes so scared. I know its common for old people but not to my grandma's degree, she's been this way her entire life according to my mom. I can't seem to understand her because I didn't grow up with her... and she didn't grow up with me so she shouldn't be telling me what to wear... when I'm with other people she tells me WHAT to say... I want to wear flip flops without hearing the word 'feo' repeatedly. I don't care what Peru thinks about me, I am who I am. AND I am 100% SURE no one cares if I wear flip flops. My grandma cares TOO MUCH about what people will think. Even if they did care, I'd rather be hated for who I am then who I'm not. And these are flip flops we're talking about!!! Lol as you can tell I'm kind of pissed off. I don't really eat much and since I don't I'm always questioned about everything! Like for me not eating to my grandma there has to be a reason, when there isn't I simply JUST don't WANT to eat. And she thinks it's because I'm sick...blah blah blah.
If I was as nervous as she was... I dont know what I would do. lol. If a car comes to close to ours which happens like 100 times a day in Peru... she starts praying or saying 'dios' 'dios' omg. LOL.
Once my uncle put on the air conditioner for 20 minutes she ranted on about how old it was even though he had turned it off. Seriously.
I love my uncle he's so fun to be with lol and my cousin.
I'm starting to miss my mom. They say grand parents are like parents. PFT YAH right.
My mom is protective too... but in the healthy way. She's not over the top! She lets me walk in malls by myself with my friends. She doesn't hold onto me like a toddler.
Oh my god my mom is like the perfect mother compared to these people LOL

First Day In Peru :]

Well, today we didn't do much.
I'm still tired from the trip and all and my cousin has been in college. But basically we went out to Pardo's Chicken... then we went back home. Then we went to Radio Shack to buy the thing for my straightener hehe. So yeah that's it LOL. But I got to talk with my grandparents and I learned a new word! Antisimpatico. I don't know if I spelled it right but its the opposite of simpatico.
I already know its going to be kind of boring here since my grand parents are old... But anything is better then staying in Massachusetts lol. The only thing I'll miss there are my parents and my friends. But I'm honestly pretty happy to be away from my friends... I need a break from them. And back home I'm so confused about my feelings. And here I don't have to think about it or feel bad about keeping it all to myself. Nobody knows about it.
Not only that I mean a day after summer began my friends were having problems. I mean its SUMMER. One of my friends is int freaking Maryland and shes causing problems. Lol.
Giancarlo will be here in a couple weeks which is good lol. What I like about him is that he doesn't say anything bad about anyone. Or if he does think badly of someone he keeps it too himself. He's really fun to be with, :] He's my best guy friend even though all he does is play video games, watch TV and go on Facebook LOL.
I have two other friends here that also go to my school Fiorella and Bianca but I forgot to tell them when I was going and they never go online now that they are in Peru. lol.